SHIT

I am offically homeless. I just got my walking papers, so. I wont be around for a while. Wish me luck, and if you really need to find me, People at the iron horse saloon on 64, know how to contact me.

trapped.

My life is slowly tumbling down the toilet, and the sad part is, its not even my fault. I'm trying with all my might to grab the life I once had back, but the economy and circumstances just dont seem to want to allow that to happen just yet.

I spend many a night, staring at the darkness of my room, wondering what the hell I did so bad in my life to bring this on. I totally beleive in Karma, and I'm getting a good swallow of it these days.
I've given up the whiskey until I get back the life I think will work for me , I am on a now and then beer diet, unless your buyin that is.

I had a job come up, but one of the invited guests was someone whom, A; is told to me to be a snitch, cant stand snitches, B; a drug user of the nasty dirty type, C; annoying beyond all comprehension. I told the "boss" If dude's goin, I aint, his call, I suspect he will bring dude over me, which just cements the fact even more so that I am doing the right thing worrining about my own best interests.

So there it is,....... I need a job, a hug, and a tissue to wie the salt from my eye.

Be Well and pray for Ol' East.

hi ya'll

Anyone got work for a hungry Biker?

My Resume

Alan Smith
P.O.Box 41, New Hill, N.C. 27562
raleigh_photographer@yahoo.com (919)362-5218

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Seeking a position in the managerial field within a business or office environment bringing
the following experience, skills and attributes:
Extensive experience with general public, interfacing well with others, excellent problem solving skills, as well as troubleshooting issues for a positive outcome.

Win/DOS, MS Word, PSP7, Basic Data entry, Exemplary Internet Skills, Basic HTML
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Education:
HS Diploma
Currently seeking a part time collage career to further my education.



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Work Experience

Assistant to the Owner , Spence Construction Group New Hill, N.C.
2007-Present

Provide "in Field" assistance with all facets of Home Improvement & Trex Decking, Azek Rail System
Prepare Job sites for start date
Execute all orders in a timely fashion
Supervise labor for precise and cost effectiveness.
incredible attention to detail and ability to implement repeatable, measureable, and accurate processes and procedures.​
Able to strike the proper balance between holding people accountable and motivating them to produce superior results.​


Owner; Rembrandt Paint & Home Improvement, Cary N.C.
1998-2007

Carried out and executed all daily duties in given construction

Supervised crew of five or more
Responsible for the duty of completing tasks not in schedule.
Carried out with skilled precision , the construction and repair of commercial/residential property.



Professional Skills:

Strong experience as painter in construction field.
Fluent in English communication.
Extensive skill in applying coatings on surfaces.
Extensive problem solving and crisis cutter.
Exceptional ability to paint old and new tools, machines in given budget.
Outstanding ability to create cost estimates.
Able to finish given work within time.

F Me.

I slowly watch as my life hurls downward, and its not even a result of my own doing,... its the result of my rope getting tangled up in someone elses, and dragging me down with them.
Trapped. Thats the only word I can think of to describe how I feel today, and no where to run for shelter.

I feel as tho I'm aging by the day, and my looks are fast fading due to stress. Life isnt fair, and it never will be, but I guess it all comes down to how bad you want to survive, and how far your willing to go to get the life you feel you deserve.

I'm not giving up just yet, I just feel alone, and very very tired.
I drempt this morning, I passed on in my sleep, yet no one noticed untill a few days had passed and I hadnt changed position in my bed. Sad thing was,... lol ... I woke up to find it was only a dream.

Clutch cable broke on the bike yesterday, thats another 60 bucks I dont have. aint life grand.

you find out who your real friends are when your up against a wall.

damaged goods. lol

so heres what ya look like after you hit a deer on a Harley @ 50 mph.

dumbass.

douchebag has risen to a new level tonight. It's one thing having to stand by while he continues to shoot "stupid" into his veins, but now his whole demenor has changed into total asswipe.

It's sad really,... having to watch someone you care about destroy years worth of progress, but also take down those around you with them, without a clue, it just suck's. my life is VERY far from where I want it to be, but this is'nt the first time I've been down, and probably not the last. I've applied for a pell grant to go back to school, I'm looking for a better, more stable, stress free job, and hopefully, with time, I shall find someopne to give my heart to.

in the meantime, maybe dumbass will shoot a bubble in his arm and do us all the favor of slowly watching him die I hate to say it because really, I love him like a brother, but I cant stand his shit anymore.