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Anyone got work for a hungry Biker?

My Resume

Alan Smith
P.O.Box 41, New Hill, N.C. 27562
raleigh_photographer@yahoo.com (919)362-5218

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Seeking a position in the managerial field within a business or office environment bringing
the following experience, skills and attributes:
Extensive experience with general public, interfacing well with others, excellent problem solving skills, as well as troubleshooting issues for a positive outcome.

Win/DOS, MS Word, PSP7, Basic Data entry, Exemplary Internet Skills, Basic HTML
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Education:
HS Diploma
Currently seeking a part time collage career to further my education.



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Work Experience

Assistant to the Owner , Spence Construction Group New Hill, N.C.
2007-Present

Provide "in Field" assistance with all facets of Home Improvement & Trex Decking, Azek Rail System
Prepare Job sites for start date
Execute all orders in a timely fashion
Supervise labor for precise and cost effectiveness.
incredible attention to detail and ability to implement repeatable, measureable, and accurate processes and procedures.​
Able to strike the proper balance between holding people accountable and motivating them to produce superior results.​


Owner; Rembrandt Paint & Home Improvement, Cary N.C.
1998-2007

Carried out and executed all daily duties in given construction

Supervised crew of five or more
Responsible for the duty of completing tasks not in schedule.
Carried out with skilled precision , the construction and repair of commercial/residential property.



Professional Skills:

Strong experience as painter in construction field.
Fluent in English communication.
Extensive skill in applying coatings on surfaces.
Extensive problem solving and crisis cutter.
Exceptional ability to paint old and new tools, machines in given budget.
Outstanding ability to create cost estimates.
Able to finish given work within time.

F Me.

I slowly watch as my life hurls downward, and its not even a result of my own doing,... its the result of my rope getting tangled up in someone elses, and dragging me down with them.
Trapped. Thats the only word I can think of to describe how I feel today, and no where to run for shelter.

I feel as tho I'm aging by the day, and my looks are fast fading due to stress. Life isnt fair, and it never will be, but I guess it all comes down to how bad you want to survive, and how far your willing to go to get the life you feel you deserve.

I'm not giving up just yet, I just feel alone, and very very tired.
I drempt this morning, I passed on in my sleep, yet no one noticed untill a few days had passed and I hadnt changed position in my bed. Sad thing was,... lol ... I woke up to find it was only a dream.

Clutch cable broke on the bike yesterday, thats another 60 bucks I dont have. aint life grand.

you find out who your real friends are when your up against a wall.

damaged goods. lol

so heres what ya look like after you hit a deer on a Harley @ 50 mph.

dumbass.

douchebag has risen to a new level tonight. It's one thing having to stand by while he continues to shoot "stupid" into his veins, but now his whole demenor has changed into total asswipe.

It's sad really,... having to watch someone you care about destroy years worth of progress, but also take down those around you with them, without a clue, it just suck's. my life is VERY far from where I want it to be, but this is'nt the first time I've been down, and probably not the last. I've applied for a pell grant to go back to school, I'm looking for a better, more stable, stress free job, and hopefully, with time, I shall find someopne to give my heart to.

in the meantime, maybe dumbass will shoot a bubble in his arm and do us all the favor of slowly watching him die I hate to say it because really, I love him like a brother, but I cant stand his shit anymore.

un f* cking beleiveable.

what a week,
first off, I was told I have 30 days to find a new place to live. oh great, thats just awesome. kick me out in winter. whatever, I mean, I needed to leave anyway, but I had a plan of action, and it didnt include right now.

Then I woke up yesterday, to find out "Hottub Johnny" died that morning. for real???? 25 years old, just had a baby, and hit a tree on the way to work. what a waste. he was nuts, annoying, and fun as hell. I loved and hated him all at the same time. He had my back on the job in Topsail,, so I give him his just dues for that. I'm gonna miss his ass.

Raise one up for Johnny.

snap

there is so much going on in my life, so much around me, Feeling the burden of trying to save those around me and keep everyone happy, it sucks. I wake from a dead sleep almost every night at 3 am, my head flooded with worry's, regrets, pain. I fantasize often about walking in the woods with a long rope, and just doing it all ready, making the worry and pain go away, but then I worry that I'll never be able to see if anyone shows up at my service.
This, this is a thought, a battle I've struggled with for years. it never goes away, it only lies dormant for a bit, then re-appears.
Life isnt fair, although no one said it would be, I'm just ready for it to be over all ready, ready to stop having to wipe the salt from my cheek and stop hiding behind the suit of leather armour that works so well keeping people distant from me.

so whats next?, what happens next and will I ever regain the good life back I once enjoyed?