This is gonna sound weird but, i miss her. Not the other one, the recent one. I've had people dis-sway me from the situation, but its been 3 weeks, and i just miss havin her around. Only one helmet hangs on "baby", where there really needs to be two. Someone to lean against as I tool down the open road in search of Freedom, someone to tell me how awesome she thinks I am, and to hang on my everyword, lol..... I know , I aint all that, but one someone thinks you are, its a nice feelin. So maybe it wont work out n the longrun, but isnt it worth takin a chance and seein if it can?
All my life, I've had some really good women come into it, and fear of rejection or failure has always made me opt out of any long term contractual agreements. I've been engaged three time's, almost made it to the alter one time, and always went for the easy way out, thinkin something better was around the corner. Tick fuckin tock,......... time aint slowin down, and Ol East aint gettin any prettier with it neither. The one thing I am learnin with age is, the little voice inside your head usually speaks up for a reason, some may even say its a higher powers way of speakin to you.
Since she's left, I've surried in other conversation pools with the opposite sex, and although the feelings of instant attractions there, it just aint the same feelin I had when she was around. So thats that.
The other thing, the one that the no one actually know's about, ( and those who do better keep it downlow) , is working out fine and under control. Aint gonna go back to those days and will do all in my power to assure such. I cheated the hangman a few time's and don't know if I have a spare hacksaw blade to pull it off again.
and so it goes-
East.
All my life, I've had some really good women come into it, and fear of rejection or failure has always made me opt out of any long term contractual agreements. I've been engaged three time's, almost made it to the alter one time, and always went for the easy way out, thinkin something better was around the corner. Tick fuckin tock,......... time aint slowin down, and Ol East aint gettin any prettier with it neither. The one thing I am learnin with age is, the little voice inside your head usually speaks up for a reason, some may even say its a higher powers way of speakin to you.
Since she's left, I've surried in other conversation pools with the opposite sex, and although the feelings of instant attractions there, it just aint the same feelin I had when she was around. So thats that.
The other thing, the one that the no one actually know's about, ( and those who do better keep it downlow) , is working out fine and under control. Aint gonna go back to those days and will do all in my power to assure such. I cheated the hangman a few time's and don't know if I have a spare hacksaw blade to pull it off again.
and so it goes-
East.
2 comments:
You're a brave man - on both accounts. < keeps words of advice to self >
Hey Alan,
As always love the blogs. It is so you.
I think myself Alan, the key word is in "A" chance. After the initial chance the rest is just insanity. Doing the same thing expecting different results.
Another thought Alan,
Some people get older (wiser) and some folks just get old.
I think Alan you are becoming wiser and need to continue to hang in there. I thought it to be pretty good that you went to the concert with your friend. For you that is definitely coming out of your comfort zone. One final thought, I love the way you continue to allow your experiences to benefit others through your blogs and believe me they do.
Love you Alan
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