freinds?

its amazing how many friends run the moment you become homeless. lol and how many others you had no idea where, step up and take their place. :)

aja

She still has my thoughts. Its not a totally bad thing, and not as heavy as it once was, but shes there.

Today has been a sad one, I miss my Dad, And as much as I'm surviving, I miss the life I once had. At least Zoe's here with me, makes life allot better. Its a lazy day filled with internet and emails, an absence from the bar is a needed one, yet people come and go past my little shed window, briefly glancing in as they travel towards their beer. My mind trys to recall names of my past inorder to look them up, with faling results.
Things aren't as they once were, older, greyness, and a bit less attractive.

so it goes.
East

alone together

Its been about 2 years since I walked away from my family. I'd love to say the holidays weren't the same, or how being homeless right now could be easier with them as a part of my life, but it would be a lie.

Even though my life is sucking right now, I'm so less stressed than I was trying to live up to family expectations. I do however miss my sister in law penny and her daughter vic. They always seemed to love me unconditionally.

such is life right? adapt and conquer.

peace

The year is finally almost fucking over. THAAANK GOD!!!!! What a shitty year I've had, between losing a girlfriend to my best freind, not making any money, moving in with a good freind and watching him "needle up" and then getting tossed out to be homeless, I dont think I could have taken much more.

I'm hopeful that the upcoming year has a bit more to offer for me and regaining my life back.
I pray the people I call friends in my life also have a good year.
Thank you to all who have supported me the last few weeks. luv ya, mean it.

East

caught me with my pants down

A freind called me tonight, We talked about how I'm ill, and the holidays are coming up and all that. Then the subject moved onto her kids, and both asked about me, but the boy asked where I was living and all, and she of course filled him in on my situation. She told me how upset he got over hearing it, and honestly, As much of a rock as I've tried to be thru all this ,it touched me and finally made me break down a little bit.

I thought that the kids, well, didnt really care much for me, but I was proved wrong, and it felt good to be wrong.

So yea, Holidays are soon here, I'm ill as hell, but my best present this year is folks who love me, and folks I'm able these days, to love back.

peace.
East

broke amd cold

Dear Life,
I cant take much more of what you've been dishing out to me. I am unemployed, homeless, had to give my dog away, my best friend. I am at my breaking point. You have made me depressed and wondering if its worth it anymore.
All I ask for is a break,.. a job so I can get my life I once knew back. It bad enough I live in a shed, but what are you going to spew upon me next???
Please give me my life back so I can put this shitty part of my life behind me.

East

freinds in leather

Thank you to all my freinds at The little Bar( Iron Horse) on 64 http://ourlittlebar.com/
Who have been taking care of me in my time of ecomony depressed need.

I promise a awesome pot of chili here in the near future, and if I can lend a hand back, I've got two.

Peace out and ride free


heard at the little bar one night " I never knew how much I used my face untill I broke it "